Study Abroad is made up of a lot of moments. Some are small and some are huge, some are glorious and others aren't. These moments are all a part of what makes the experience so dynamic, and in my opinion, worth it. They are also what make you grow.
When I first arrived in Berlin, I had a lot of insecure moments and moments of panic. I found myself in a German-speaking world when I myself don't speak German. I felt like a freshman again: overwhelmed by the number of new faces and potential friends who surrounded me during orientation. I also have never truly been on my own before and found myself feeling quite lonely in the beginning.
All of these feelings and seemingly overwhelming moments, however, led to growth. Slowly, I grew more confident while ordering bread at the bakery: trying to say any German words or phrases I knew when given the chance. I also began making friends with the people on my floor and in my program. And I even began growing more comfortable with the fact of being on my own.
There was, however, one moment that I consider to be defining in my growth, which I would like to share.
A group of friends and I decided one weekend we wanted to take a trip to Prague over the weekend. Being early on, I was still nervous and unsure about the idea, but also craving adventure, so I decided to go.
I will make a long story short by saying that we missed our bus. By a painful two minutes. Determined to make the weekend happen, we looked into other means of getting there. We quickly learned that the next bus to Prague wasn't departing until 3:00am, eight hours from our initial departure time.
I wanted to call my mom, I wanted to cry, and I wanted to give up on the adventure. I had been through so much in the past two weeks and I couldn't handle the road block before me. I couldn't, until I realized I could.
I stood there at that bus station and I looked around and I distinctly remember thinking, “You can do this. You didn't study abroad to give up so easily on adventure,” and I immediately knew I was going to be okay. I immediately knew that I was and am capable. And that was huge for me.
Up until then, I had felt very unsure of myself and my capabilities. But it was that defining moment at the bus stop, where that all washed away, and I knew I was just fine.
And in case you were wondering, we did decide to take the early morning bus ride to Prague, and I am beyond happy we did because it was a beautifully rewarding trip, filled with its own unforgettable moments.
So here I am in Berlin with an overwhelming excitement for the moments yet to come, and a newfound confidence in myself that I'll be able to handle whatever else is in store.